Shape Magazine

This email was in my inbox today!!!!

Hi Sandy!

 

I hope all is well with you. I wanted to let you know that we are considering your story for our March issue. Is there any way you could resend me your before and after pictures? It would be great if I could get them by 3pm my time.

 

Thanks so much!

 

Abbi

 

I am so excited!! I hope it works out!! How cool would that be?

 

 

Melancholy

I needed to see this today.

For those of you who know me well, you know I can be very melancholy at times. The world can seem too much some days. Over the past few days, I have been very melancholy. Part of it is self-doubt regarding my weight loss and part of it is just where we are in life right now. I am really struggling with believing I can finish my weight loss and reach my goal. On one hand, I am tired of fighting and working so dang hard and on the other hand, I want to reach my goal so badly. Why after so much success do I still doubt myself? Why does doubt even dare to show itself after the success I have seen? Why do I doubt my strength and my abilities? Why do I fail to see what I am capable of? I have no idea. I am searching for answers because I believe this self-doubt is exactly what is keeping me from reaching my goal. One day I am on top of the world and the next day I am convinced I just cannot do it. Why? Do not hear me wrong. I am not quitting. I am just trying to figure out why this doubt creeps up and how I can combat it so it does not sabotage my efforts.

 

Halloween = Fail

Last night's eating = FAIL! Come on, who can resist that much candy? I have maintained discipline in these situations before but last night it went out the door. I dove right in. This morning? This morning I feel awful! I'm still full, have a slight head ache and am so glad I eat right now. I cannot believe I use to live this way!! YUCK!