Whew!!! What a week! This was my last week at West Coast Bank. Knowing this, and knowing Friday was going to have lots of food temptations, I planned my free day for Friday. I knew it would be too hard to pass everything up. However, as the week progressed I changed my mind and decided I was going to be strong and wait until Saturday. Friday came and so did the emotions and all the food. It became a huge emotional hurdle and I was caving in. In fact, my thoughts were "I don't care, I'm going to eat anything and everything." That scared me. The internal battle can be so great it becomes crippling. When I left for lunch I called Jason. I just needed to talk through it with someone. He reminded me that I had planned for this. He told me he thinks I'm sabotaging myself by changing the game plan. I calmed down after that conversation and was able to go back to the office and eat, in moderation, some of the treats. I am so thankful I have Jason. My weight loss is not his responsibility but it is very nice to have that lifeline. If you are in the middle of a weight loss or are starting one, find someone you can call when you feel like you just can't do it. It's a humbling experience, but extremely important to your success.
Back to my weigh in this week. I'm finally back to 184 lbs. That's 1 lb for the week but I'm happy with it. It's movement in the right direction. Three more lbs and I'll be back to the smallest I've been during this journey. The other day a friend told me the fat you have for a long time is the hardest to get rid of. I put on this weight back in high school so apparently it doesn't want to let go easily. I think our theme song is Sugarland's Stuck Like Glue. LOL!
